Journal, Recovery, Spirituality

faith & love

I was very reluctant to go to Mass today. I almost stayed home, and without as good a reason as last Sunday. When I came to the church, sat down, my mind wandered. I read the readings, heard the homily, but didn't really take in whatever was said. I just ended up feeling like garbage… Continue reading faith & love

Culture, Journal, Recovery

better out than in

A friend recently convinced me to get on Instagram to help me build up my artist street cred. It’s been very helpful in getting me drawing again (thanks, friend!), and what’s more, there are a lot of things others have posted that make me very happy and inspired to look at. One running trend (maybe… Continue reading better out than in

Culture, Recovery, Spirituality

victim blaming & sin

It’s been a long while since Jesus shared a piece of His Heart with me at Mass. It was a part of His victimhood I didn’t really realize, or maybe appreciate, that we had in common. Mary and Joseph supported Him and the truths He revealed, see, but His extended family didn’t. The gospel today, Mark 2:20-30,… Continue reading victim blaming & sin

Journal, Spirituality

known by our love

When I was a kid going to "guitar Masses," there was one folksy hymn we'd sing with the refrain, "They will know we are Christian by our love." The melody could've used some work, but part of me misses that hymn. I feel the Church could do with hearing that message a little more often.… Continue reading known by our love

Journal, Recovery, Sexuality

troubled night

So many thoughts and feelings trapped inside. Even if it's just a short, messy post, I figured I'd write today after all. I tried to write an entry a few times today about being pressured to forgive, how it comes across as a threat instead of something I "give". I'd get so self-destructive, as I… Continue reading troubled night