Abuse, Journal, Recovery

pitfalls

A/N: I don’t really like the word “trigger” for a number of reasons, the biggest one being how it’s being used so casually in society. For simplicity’s sake, I’ll be using it to describe what happens when something from the present reminds me of something traumatic. It was a hot day again, so we've been… Continue reading pitfalls

Abuse, Journal, Recovery

to uncle joe

I never really had the idea to write an open letter to one of my abusers. I never had the idea of what I’d want to tell them, nor any idea what I’d want to say if I did. Until now. I’m not sure why this one came to me first. Maybe it’s because I… Continue reading to uncle joe

Culture, Recovery, Spirituality

victim blaming & sin

It’s been a long while since Jesus shared a piece of His Heart with me at Mass. It was a part of His victimhood I didn’t really realize, or maybe appreciate, that we had in common. Mary and Joseph supported Him and the truths He revealed, see, but His extended family didn’t. The gospel today, Mark 2:20-30,… Continue reading victim blaming & sin

Journal, Spirituality

known by our love

When I was a kid going to "guitar Masses," there was one folksy hymn we'd sing with the refrain, "They will know we are Christian by our love." The melody could've used some work, but part of me misses that hymn. I feel the Church could do with hearing that message a little more often.… Continue reading known by our love

Journal, Recovery, Sexuality

troubled night

So many thoughts and feelings trapped inside. Even if it's just a short, messy post, I figured I'd write today after all. I tried to write an entry a few times today about being pressured to forgive, how it comes across as a threat instead of something I "give". I'd get so self-destructive, as I… Continue reading troubled night

Journal

diving deeper

In hopes of growing more in wonder and affection for the ocean (and life itself), I’ve been watching a documentary called Fishpeople. It follows people from all over living, playing, and working in the water.  The first story follows a young woman and her father who would dive and fish together. Amidst the mesmerizing footage… Continue reading diving deeper