Journal, Recovery

through darkness

There's so much I want to say. There's so much I want to do. Too much. I don't know where to start, or how to start. The topic is still fresh on people's minds; this is the best time to talk about abuse, the Church, etc. I could help a lot of people with what… Continue reading through darkness

Journal, Recovery

connected hearts

I’m in a very strange position where I’ve been not only granted permission, but outright encouraged to complain. Heat stress struck again, leaving us down two people, myself included. It’s imperative for everyone involved that from now on, I speak up immediately, even if I "don't feel hot". This goes against many of my deeply-rooted… Continue reading connected hearts

Journal, Recovery

body & soul II

I recently had a small case of heat stress. These newer workstations aren't very well-equipped against the heat, even with the added shades. As the days get hotter, general workplace anxiety has been going up with the temperature. It was like last year when we learned about this fact the hard way, where I got… Continue reading body & soul II

Journal

lifeline

A/N: talking openly about suicidal thoughts here...you've been warned. When you type in something along the lines of “painless suicide” into google, those first pages of results are going to be links to suicide-prevention services, hotlines, sites dedicated to talking you out of it. The most common advice they give is 1) wait, and 2) talk… Continue reading lifeline

Journal, Recovery, Sexuality

troubled night

So many thoughts and feelings trapped inside. Even if it's just a short, messy post, I figured I'd write today after all. I tried to write an entry a few times today about being pressured to forgive, how it comes across as a threat instead of something I "give". I'd get so self-destructive, as I… Continue reading troubled night