Journal, Recovery, Sexuality

troubled night

So many thoughts and feelings trapped inside. Even if it's just a short, messy post, I figured I'd write today after all. I tried to write an entry a few times today about being pressured to forgive, how it comes across as a threat instead of something I "give". I'd get so self-destructive, as I… Continue reading troubled night

Journal

red & white

One of my New Years resolutions was to get closer to my Japanese roots, particularly in how we celebrate holidays. Following New Year itself, the first on the list was St. Valentine's Day. As of some decades ago, when Western holidays grew in popularity in Japan, it's tradition for girls/women to give chocolate and other… Continue reading red & white

Journal

shelter in life’s storms

I’d been looking into making song covers, and even original music. I’d been thinking about doing this for years, and for whatever reason, I decided I wanted to try on YouTube though I’m nervous, hehe. There's not much there yet; just a banner, some lyrics I'm working on, translating. One step at a time, though.… Continue reading shelter in life’s storms

Abuse, Recovery

re: trauma

If I were to sum up "trauma" in a word...I'd say "life-altering" is a pretty good one to use. It's something that causes great harm in whatever way the abuse entails, and maybe the worst harm is the harm done to the victim's perspective of reality. When I was growing up, I understood "trauma" from… Continue reading re: trauma