to flow fearlessly

I think I shared once or twice that I spent my whole life in and out of martial arts - since I was 4 to now, it never really left my life, even when I wasn't formally taking lessons. Somewhere along my healing journey, I had a lot of mixed feelings about martial arts, and… Continue reading to flow fearlessly


thanksgiving 2017

As I shared on social media, I hate Thanksgiving. All the feelings I’ve had for that holiday is just a lot of stress and abuse. My family often hosted, so there was my uncle, my mom running the kitchen like a crazy restaurant, and just a whole lot of other people I didn’t really want… Continue reading thanksgiving 2017


living out integrity

I had a thought recently that encompasses everything that’s been on my mind, between others who have hurt me, my abusers, my own victim-mentality, and the world in general. It all concerns that one word: integrity. Not long ago, I had to step out on a homily on the “terrible twos”, that challenging time in… Continue reading living out integrity


crabs have claws

Abuse really does so much harm to one’s ability to see reality. I realized it again when I made that mistake, memories of mistakes leading to severe emotional abuse and grudges (leading to more emotional abuse for those things I said sorry for) flooding my mind. This is true for the immediate as well as… Continue reading crabs have claws

Art Therapy


The original draft of this piece was a comment on how some cases of child abuse get erased or ignored in favor of cases that are of a "high percentage", furthers someone's agenda, or are just plain unsightly. In light of #MeToo, I switched gears a little bit. The words here are only a scratch… Continue reading unsightly


living with emotions

I wrote in my foreword/about page that I'm a "textbook Cancer". While I don't place any faith in astrology or horoscopes, yes; my personality happens to closely parallel the profile for someone born under Cancer (sensitive, nurturing, and creative, close to the moon and sea). For a long time, I felt bad about this fun… Continue reading living with emotions